Let me start today’s post with full disclosure I am not a mom dealing with anxiety. At least not in the diagnosed/medicated sense. My anxiety is the functional kind. I get anxious. A lot. But…
To The Mom Dealing With Anxiety
What grief feels like 5 years later
Dear Bella, As I watched the fog blanket our tiny town this morning, you were on my mind as I cautiously drove away from home. Your sister in the backseat couldn’t quite comprehend the inability…
What’s your WHY?
This exact day three years ago was the day I was supposed to become a mom for the first time. At least according to the doctors. January 23rd was our angel Bella’s due date. (We…
Three Years
Dear Bella, These days your presence is like a soft whisper that blows over me in the cool autumn breeze. The signs of fall are upon us and it reminds me of you. It was…
Still Standing | Online Misscarriage, Stillbirth, Child Loss, Infertility Support
How many children do you have? It’s the question I cringe at every time those words leave an unknowing stranger’s mouth. There is always a pregnant pause. And a quizzical look from the person asking…
always with us
Last week we found Bella in the most unlikely of places. The gift tags at Nordstrom. I’m used to finding her in the darkness of our bedroom as I’m drifting off to sleep. Or in…
Unexpected Grief
I took one last deep yoga breath before stepping into Inksanity Tattoo Company on Friday night. The emotions and adrenaline pumping through my body in that moment felt so familiar. The nerves, the huge pit…
Getting Sacred. Getting Inked.
I got my first tattoo when I was 21. In a moment of college spontaneity myself and 6 of my closest college buds decided to commemorate the summer of 2002 forever. The pisces fish now…
Stuck
Yesterday I didn’t shower. (please feel free to follow with a chorus of “ewwwww gross” or “that’s disgusting” here). The desire to be clean just wasn’t there. Being on summer vacation, free from the “day…
Breathe
When there aren’t enough hours in the day and your to-do list is a mile long, don’t forget to BREATHE. When life throws you a curve ball and the odds seem stacked against you, don’t…